Behaving Badly!

I am sure none of you can relate, but in the spirit of honesty let me tell you...I behaved quite badly this week. I lost hope, yelled at the kids just because I could, quit several times and simply lost it. BTW...all is done, all animals in loving homes, house is cleaned, classes are done, even our plants have a place to settle....Mind you...this all transpired in its entirety this Friday. OK, back to the story, it is Thursday afternoon and I am stressed OUT!!!!!! A wonderful lady, I am sure, has just told me over the phone that maybe because we don't have all the details taken care of we are really not supposed to go. She used the trump card, God had told her and she felt obligated to let us know this new message from the Almighty. I am weary to the bone, my house is in disarray, my kids are sad, my husband is tying up loose ends, I have a paper to write AND I get a message from God that we are all in the wrong because we can't quite get everything together. Bless her heart, I was in no mood to talk, I should have but I hung up the phone, curled into a small ball and wailed. Scott walks in the room at this time, watches me melt and wonders what for awful has happened. As I wail in desperation, Scott, (wanting to tell me ..NOT the time Heidi for a melt down.. SNAP OUT OF IT ) gently puts his arms around me and lets me drain my stress tank and lets me know its going to be all right. I so wish in times like this I would remember the faithfulness of God. I don't...I hate that about my faith. I know better...I really do !ANYWAY..we are on the way to Idaho. All packed up and somewhat rested. Wanted you all to know inspite of me, God is previous, He already knows, He's already been. Remind me next time !!!!