eating free

Since November I have been trying to change my diet so that I eat less carbohydrates. It really isn't that hard now and I have no idea if I am feeling better as I had felt good prior. I am turning 50 this year and I know as I have been told by many who have gone before that maintaining anything will be nigh impossible unless I am intentional about being intentional about my eating. I do love bread and any kind of potato but oh well.

So, I have been careful and diligent and all that wonderful discipline stuff that comes easy to some in my family (Scott).  On Friday night we watched a movie about the end of the world and in one scene a woman was saying that she was eating everything she wanted because the world was going to end...Made me think...How fun would that be, eating everything with no consequence.

Sunday we went to a restaurant in Anacortes and the only thing on the menu that seemed OK was this plate that had in its title...Mac & Cheese . I read eggs and bacon and spinach. Eggs, bacon and spinach doesn't have a lot of carbs...Mac and Cheese though...does.  Funny, how I overlooked the simple words, Mac& cheese.
As he placed this plate in front of me I gasped. There in all its yummy pre-apocalyptic comfort food wonder was  Mac & Cheese, with 2 fried eggs on top sitting on a bed of bacon . There was some green but more color then taste.  WOW...was it every GOOD. As I ate the first bite...I sat in wonder at how great it would be if there were no consequence to this plate of anti-healthy. The second bite was even better then the first...full of crunchy bacon, egg and cheesy macaroni. About the 6th bite...it wasn't tasting as wonderful...and then I just stopped eating. Scott asked me if I didn't like it...
" No, it is really very very good...I just have worked so hard these past few months that even though this is just one plate of food...the pleasure of the temporary taste does not outweigh the effort it has taken to get to this place where it wasn't missed."  The ability to pack it up and give it to my calorie burning son was a great victory for me....YES...food's pleasure does not win over my desire to be healthy. The meteor is not coming, I have not been given a pass to treat my concerted effort over these past months with something so deliberately bad for me.

Small victory in the long road before me....