This summer, I want to take the time to figure out what the next chapter will be now that the intensity of parenting has moved to a different level. I have concentrated my focus in the last 20 years to parent to the best of my ability. It has been through addiction and death of a spouse, financial difficulties, being single, buying and selling homes, dating, newly married, in job transitions, in different geography's, in getting my Masters, in healing from serious injury, in deaths of in-laws. Parenting has been my focus of energy and imagination. Along the way, in the normal and worthwhile concentration of being a mom, I have lost whatever my dreams, ambitions or passions were. I thought I knew what it was I wanted to do...but what I have really wanted is to do right by the kids that were given to me in the middle of what has been some incredible difficult years.
Now I have a good job, a wonderful marriage, a comfortable life...but no idea whatsoever what it is I have a passion for. My focus has been parenting....what happens when that focus is not longer necessary...what then, what now?
3 comments:
I look forward to your musings on this dilemma. I'm not sure I have an answer after 10 years...
While I was pondering your blog, I came across a comment on FB from Henry Blackaby, the author of "Experiencing God." He wrote, "[God] will reveal His purposes to you so you can become involved in His work rather than merely pursuing your own goals and dreams. #EG" Is that relevant to your ponderings? - lew
LEW...it is and it isn't...I do believe that God reveals his purposes in our goals and dreams. I am not so limited to God always having something so alternative to that..I do believe I will write on that :).
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