Needing to be wanted...wanting to be needed. One thing about Papua that I have missed is that being there whatever talent you have or consider having is needed somewhere. Here in the US...most the time you do what you are good at or what you are certified to do. We stay in our fields of expertise, this is especially true in education.
I just got a list of the needs at HIS for the coming year...it was like a shopping list of what we could do in our fields of expertise but also in the realms of what we could do if needed.
At LC I am there but if I wasn't there would be another just as qualified. We have lines of people waiting to fill our positions when in Papua you could be the only one able to do what is so desperately needed. Being necessary is such a wonderful feeling.
There is a danger though in loving that feeling and that is feeling like you are the only one who can fulfill all those needs. Being expendable in the realm of the employed hopefully makes you work hard enough to be necessary. If you are the only who can do whatever it is to be done ... maybe you then don't work as hard and begin to feel that you are too necessary to be replaced.
It is a conundrum... I just miss being necessary in all realms of what I can do.
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